• I have an obsession

    I have an obsession about not being seen,
    I have an obsession that I don’t need you,
    To read my words. To read them here.

    I have an obsession to write and to write, to put it all here.
    I have an obsession to not care for hits,
    Hits on a site, hits on a video, hits for self-esteem.

    I have an obsession to write it down Quick,
    I have an obsession to not really Care,
    I have an obsession to not give much thought,
    I have an obsession to be an anti-pErfecTioniist.

    To come from the heart is to not be erased,
    To come from the soul is to not be cut up,
    For me to be true is to not play by rules,
    Rules like rhyming, rhythm or verse.

    Just to be true. Just to be true. Just to be true.
    Let it flow, let it flow, out of your mind.
    Let it flow, let it flow, into the void.
    Onto the screen, and saved away publicly safe.

  • There’s something more

    There’s something more,
    Than this,
    There’s that,
    That – which is not,
    But could be still?

    There’s something more,
    It doesn’t exist,
    Only in thought,
    There is no more,
    This is just now (this) (this) (this) (this) and (this).

    Better is thought,
    Better is judging,
    Better is denial,
    Better is deluded.

    This is real,
    This sight,
    This sound,
    This feeling,
    This taste,
    This smell,
    This touch,
    This thought?
    Well the thinking happens,
    But the thought isn’t real.

    I speak as if I know it all,
    But it’s not so.
    Because,
    There’s something more.
    I feel it deep,
    I feel it here,
    I feel it now,
    Now could be more.
    Now could be better.
    If I were here, if I were now, if I were more.

  • The novelty of an alien mind

    I have been looking around for any access to smart AI like GPT-3 – a text predictor mentioned in an earlier post. I got quite hooked generating fiction and poetry with it last year. Unfortunately GPT-3 is restricted to a waitlist and probably requires a business so you use it enough to warrant access (and more money). Also AI Dungeon (which uses/used GPT-3) has got kind of worse somehow since I last logged in (the subreddit is up in arms to say the least).

    Then I started to question why I even got this AI fever to write with one. It has a certain novelty that doesn’t wear off too fast. It’s like an amazing illusion that I almost fall for that it is actually thinking like me.

    I sort of compared it to if you heard the music of some alien civilisation. How amazing that would be, not so much because ‘we are not alone’ but more like ‘a completely different kind of being’ sort of thing. That’s maybe in the same area of my fascination with the predictor.

    I listened to a similar predictive AI made by the same organisation, Open AI, here. This time it makes music. Again it was that very eerie feeling of novelty spawning from a black box. A box where no one knows exactly how it got to that output. I loved it.

    Maybe I need to have more confidence in my own writing. Try to find the polish and value of it. No AI crutch needed! I should be more grateful for my own text predictive generator noggin.

Hello! I’m Tom (he/him), based in London, UK. I write prose & poetry, also some small reflections I want to share. Enjoy 🙂

I have a Youtube channel where I post creative things sometimes.